I've been doing some thinking about the artwork that I have been creating lately. It is very different from my work over the past 20 years. What caused me to reflect on this was a video that my sister posted of a song that was stuck in her head. The song was 'Eet' by Regina Spektor. I also liked the song right away and got from the song a feeling of being disconnected from something that you once loved, a person, place or time in your life. I felt like the song was an expression of trying to reconnect with that feeling. After watching the video, I clicked on the video for 'Fidelity,' another song by Regina Spektor that I already knew and liked but had not given much thought to. In fact, most often I had seen it used as a breakup song. After seeing the video, I liked the song even more. It seemed to me to be about a woman who had always closed herself off to life and love, to protect herself. After meeting this person, the door to seeing all of the beautiful colors/things/possibilities was now open to her. She may still be with him and she may not, but the thought of her life ever going back to that cold, colorless, protected place ever again, breaks her heart.
All of my paintings, up until the last few months have had the color black in them somewhere. They were almost always dark, I guess even a commentary on how the world had seemed to be for me so far. Now, all I want to do is try to show all of the beautiful colors that I still see everyday, everywhere. I know that my life will never go back to the way it was before, and that makes me smile - and apparently want to paint a LOT! :) <3
PS- I'm going to be in a play this summer, yikes! Ok, fine, whatever... I'm excited. Haha!